My year of wild consumption.

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2017, a year dedicated to creativity (in progress).

As I addressed in my last post, 2016 was a difficult year for me. That being said, it was full of a lot of self-care, and while I was doing a lot of crafts, I was also doing a lot of… Netflix. And Amazon Prime. And whatever other streaming network I could get my hands on.

To give you an idea, over the space of the year, in no particular order, I watched:

  • Orphan Black (Seasons 1-4)
  • Mr. Robot (Season 1)
  • Gilmore Girls (last 5 seasons plus the reboot)
  • Girl Meets World (Seasons 1&2)
  • Crossing Jordan (last 3 seasons)
  • Call the Midwife (1.5 seasons)
  • Outlander (1.5 seasons)
  • The Mindy Project (3.5 seasons)
  • Fresh Off the Boat (1.5 seasons)
  • This is Us
  • Atlanta (first half of the season)
  • The Walking Dead (last season… not really interested in this one)
  • Parenthood (All of it)

And… those are just the shows I binge-watched. That I can remember. I was in a state of wild consumption. It was all I could do to keep my mind and my hands busy (usually I was crocheting or cleaning or spinning yarn or knitting while watching these things). Still, that’s comparing to it taking me almost a full year to watch the first season and a half of Gilmore Girls beforehand.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with TV, and don’t get me wrong, some of that was really good TV. But I was stuck in consumer mode. 100% intake, no creative export. It was.probably what I needed at the time, but these first few days of 2017 I’ve been putting a lot of my focus on doing something creative every single day, with the focus of that being working on my novel. And let me tell you, as enjoyable as taking in good content is, creating good content is so, so much better.

I have to push myself some days. It’s not always easy. Sometimes I have to squeeze it in between a long night of work and a few spare hours of sleep during the day. But I’m reconnecting with my characters, I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel, and I’m back to creating. It’s good to be back.

Embracing 2017

So 2016 was a hard year on me, both on a global and a personal level. Because of that, I didn’t get a lot of writing done, didn’t accomplish many of the goals I set out for myself. I pretty much hunkered down and practiced a lot of self-care and cuddled pets and friends’ babies and did everything I could to keep my heart open and beating and soft.

But 2017 has started, for me, with clearer and stronger intent than any year before. I have a lot of work ahead of me, but for the first time in a long time I feel energized and ready to do it. More than that, I can’t wait do do it.

I’m not expecting this year to be an easy one, by any means, but I’m going to make it a joyful one. I’m going to spend it being more of what I want to be and less of what I don’t want to be. I’m going to get off my phone, go back to using the internet as a tool rather than as a numbing device, and finally stop making excuses for my writing.

It’s taken me a lot of growth to get to this point, to go from wanting to being ready and willing to be genuinely myself and take hold of my power. To decide to be accountable for each and every day. That’s what I want this year to be. That’s how it is going to be.

I feel like last year was the recoil before the pitch. There’s going to be a lot of forward-movement from here on out.